All my life I’ve heard that if you experience fear it is a lack of faith. I’m starting to realize that my feelings are from my flesh. To fear is to be human, but if we allow ourselves to act out of fear, we are not relying on God. My latest fear is regarding my deadline that I set for my album. What if it doesn’t happen? What will people think? I am afraid that people will think I’m irresponsible. To me, being responsible is the most important character trait. I value responsibility over friendliness, or other traits. God has revealed that the most important trait is trust in God. Instead of worrying about what people will think of me, I should humble myself and show people my flaws. Instead of being embarrassed, I need to be transparent about my weaknesses.
The other fear is, What if I lose listeners? If the album doesn’t come out when I have an audience, maybe they will forget to listen later. Again, faith comes into play. Through prayer, I feel that God is telling me he will provide an audience for my music. I don’t need to find my audience. I don’t need to rely on social media or other man-made techniques to build my business. In this situation, God has told me that he will provide listeners at the right time, when they are ready to hear and when I’m ready to share.
Today, my pastor said we should involve others in praying for our needs. I think I also need to be willing to pray with people. I’m learning how to pray in a way that doesn’t sound like a pre-written script. I’m learning to pray out loud, but directly to God, instead of to the people listening. Seeking his will as the words come out of my mouth, that is the direction he is giving me. As you read this, I pray that you can also pray with others and share your heart. God alone will provide a path that you couldn’t imagine.
My computer is telling me that I have used the word “provide” too much. What a blessing that is! It is a great reminder that God does something all the time. Just like his eye is on the sparrow, he is a great provider! Praise God!
Jennifer Yoch Music 